This Is Me Leaving It All On The Table And Letting You Go

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There have been so many different thoughts going through my head for the past week. I wondered what I did to make the person I love more than anything walk away without a second thought. I’ve looked at the pieces and tried to make sense of their brokenness with my friends.

But it doesn’t make sense. Heartbreak rarely does.

So, this is for me. Not for you. This is me telling myself the things I need in order to let go and move on. These are the things I want to tell you but will never get the chance too.

This is me telling you I love you. I love you in the purest of forms. The kind of love that I never knew existed until I met you. It’s also the kind of love that I know will come around again. Before you, I didn’t actually think it existed and now after you, I know it does. Even though it didn’t work out, it’s still something I know I want and will find again.

This is me telling you I’m sorry. I’m so damn sorry for everything I did that was completely wrong. While you did a lot of things that hurt me, I wasn’t perfect. I became a version of me that I hated. I became a person that I never thought I would ever end up being and for that I’m sorry. I’m sorry I made you doubt any piece of yourself. I’m sorry for pushing you. I’m just sorry for the way things went.