I don’t care where our paths are leading. I don’t care that right now yours is different than mine. I don’t care that you’re millions of miles away. I don’t care as long as somewhere down the line we meet back up.
Because baby, when that happens, it’s going to be pure and utter magic.
I know you have to go. I know you have to find yourself. I know that there are so many things in this world we have to experience apart in order for us to work together. The nights are going to feel endless without you. The days are going to drag. But I know we’re doing the right thing. I’m not going to stop you from going because I care about you too much to do that.
But I’m going to miss you. Every single second you’re gone. I’m going to miss the way you smell. The way you laugh. Your dimples. Your eyes. Everything. And even though you’re not in my arms, you will always be in my heart. That’s where you belong anyway. There are going to be days when it’s unbearable to know that you’re not just a phone call away anymore. There are going to be times when I’m going to be so close to cracking and will want to ask you to come back.
But I won’t. I won’t not for a lack of caring but because I know if I did call, you’d come running. And I can’t do that to you yet.
And if you ever called me, if you ever needed to hear my voice, to hear me tell you how amazing you are, I will always answer. If you ever felt like giving up or like the world was caving in, I would come find you. I would find you to tell you how incredibly strong you are. To give you the motivation you need to keep going. I will forever and always be your strength during your times of weakness.
Get out of here and don’t look back. Because if you do look back or hesitate for a second, I’m going to break. I’m going to lose my nerve that’s telling me to let you go. I’m going to forget everything about how it’s right for us to separate for a bit and tell you to never leave. I’m going to put my needs above yours and I’m going to be incredibly selfish.
As bad as I want to ask you to stay, I know what you’re meant to go. You’re meant for more than this place. You’re meant to see the world and discover things that not many people have the opportunity to. There’s no way that I can go with you because in some ways that will hold you back. So chase those feelings that are telling you to go and hold on to them in your darkest times.
Because they will get you through the lonely.
If I’m holding you back at all, know that I’ll be all right. I’ll be all right because you have given me the inspiration to find myself.
So maybe it’s naïve to think that this will work out. That magically we will end up together. That we won’t meet other people along the way. That we won’t be led astray from whatever this is between us. And maybe we will. But I trust in the feelings I get around you. Those kind of feelings aren’t just something you throw away.
Because when someone feels like home you don’t forget them.